..JeAlouSy..

Everytime after i read something about you..I got such abit jealous feeling..I dont know how to describe it..Izit I jealous because of love or jealous because of no reason ?? Saw your name from THERE..I already feel that i and you are far apart again..Always think that you and THEM are much more closer than you and me ..I wish you can treat me like you treat them also ..But I know ..I will always be the looser if compared to them ..Haih..They are so close with anyone..Just 1 or 2 years friendship they adi can so fren with them liao..But you n me is much more closer leh..Why cant you treat me like that also..I told myself..I and you are just friend..I cannot expect so much..I cannot control your life..You got the right to choose who be you fren..I just dissappointed and sad ..when i saw you together with them..I always hope that I can be the 1st one to shared your problem..Always by ur side..I really jealous of THEM..^_^...YOU are the 1 i cannot love..because I feel that you wont be truthly love me ..As many people say before..the moment of chasing each other is much more sweeter than after couple..This adi prove from 1 of my friend love relationship..I dont want myself get into the same trouble too..Everytime when got something about you ..I will pay more attention on that..Why am I so stupid ?? Thinking of you just make my life more Fan !!HUh..Sometimes i feel that I not really like you also ..All of this tin hapen also because of jealousy and want to know what hapen around you only..Always remind myself You are the guy whose i cannot like..There are no future between us !! I must start to know what is call LOVE ..I dont want misunderstanding anymore betwen such feeling..

p/s:But still hope can heard from you soon..:}p

...SoRRy...mAyBe Is My fAult...

At last the secret adi say out ..before that i keep the secret because i want a peaceful life..but now i feel very guilty to them ..maybe is my fault.. I should not say out anything..let it be the secret forever and ever..Once the secret is out ..everything change..I dont i should blive ar not..I dont know want stand who side ..I very suffer..why i so useless?? I hate myself so much ..

Really very sorry to both of ur.. I know i bring alot of pressure to your..All of us are going to get mad of that incident..I know whatever is hapen is adi be fact..hurt is hurt..The "duri"is hard to pluck it out from our heart...But if i dint say out ..we dont know in the future what will hapen ..maybe will more worst ..How i going to settle this problem ?? Abit regret come back to Taiping..dint come back maybe ntg happen..Huh

Izit the secret is truth ?? or i misunderstand it ?? but nomatter what he say got abit unbelieveable..I know is my fault i dint blive you ..but i dont know what you say i should believe ar not ? I very confused ..She keep asking me to help her ..but i dont know how to help ..i scared i will make the problem more worst and big..i can feel that both of your are pressure..me too..I am tiring with this kind of life..I dont know i cant stand for how long ..

One day dint settle one day wont have a peaceful life...I dont want that !! Sorry..Sorry..maybe i had make a mistakes ..Wei..He hate me adi ..How ?? I very xin ku ..I dont know will like that de ..I just want everything settle nia ..I dont want everyday pass my life with tears and worries..

HELP !! HELP !!

* tAipiNg Life*

Finally,i come back to my home sweet home adi..Arrived on sunday night,Feel so warm when i step into my house and especially my bedroom...Woooh..Nice!! I clean up my room and my cupboard..mum ask me give out some shirt to ppl..coz too many shirt liao..Since i dont want wear so dont keep it anymore..

Monday morning..so gam mummy dint go Yoga..so I wake up early and folow her go pasar and have our breakfast..I samo go find pyng for a while..her sis say so long dint see me also liao..Afternoon went shop and help dad to stick poly bag sticker..haiz..Aunty suan me..come back taiping samo work aH..KL work tak cukup meh..what to do..dad need it urgent ma..Suddenly, serena come find me at shop and chat..and she is so good help me to stick the poly bag also ..

Tuesday afternoon, together with serena go school and collect our magazine..we meet cecilia, mr tan and pn khairiah at there..later we went to agnes house ..coz we decided go play badminton ma..Wah..so sweat..Really a good exercise..we can enjoying playing because no other ppl adi..just me,serena,teexin, poh juan,jennifer nia...

Wednesday night we go celebrate Meichoo birthday at Piano Cafe ...she is so suprise with our celebration..hahaz..after that , jennifer fetch us go Ah Gua village to see pondan..Later on,no place go ....go teexin house and chat at there..We having fun at there..and take some picture too..

Thursday night i went out with pyng..She fetch me go Kai Kai and Eat..We went to prima
cafe..Sambil eat sambil chat ..This is the 2nd time she fetch me..But Im the 1st person she fetch me to town oh ..So lucky la me..hahaz..After dinner, we went to Acewin shop..We go find aunty at there..Aunty ask us buy smtg for her shop..Then pyng ask me buy a shirt for HIM..because..hehez..I say c 1st..lolx
Then i terpikat with a pencil box..It was very nice..But i more prefer GIRL'S pencil box..
After that..went to One Price shop..Nothing buy at there also..Taiping is so small la..no place to walk also ..Later, we go fetch her and went to pokok assam..Lastly i go back her house and chat at there..

I start to feel boring on Friday ..I had ntg to do anymore..everyday pass my time folow mum go shop..Go shop . also always eat nia..really ntg to do...So I find my little cousin brother and play..he is really dam chubby la..I so like to cubit him..Lolx..Now less frens at taiping..no1 accompany..some adi go study liao..I wan find de pula .....haih..No comment on that ..

conclusion, everyday i pass my tme normally..ntg special..mum everyday push me go learn car..but i lazy la..and i got abit scared of learning car too..I scared Bang car..hahaz..Useless la me..

~~Shopping with Mummy~~

My house phone connection got problem cause me update my blog so late ..Anyway i just review it la.. 12th of april, mummy purposely come to KL and bring me back to taiping.. My parents dont allowed me to go back alone , they say dangerous wor..they are worry of my safety..What to do the only daughter nia leh ..lolx ( perasan)..Btw, thanks mummy and daddy for yours loving and caring..

I was impatient, early morning after breakfast I keep looking my watch ..waiting for my mummy to arrived.. I was so miss her adi 1 month like that i dint meet her liao..around 11 smtg i took a bus to Pudu Raya and wait for mum..The bus was so slow..Huh..around 1pm mum arrived adi ..When i saw her , i got bit excited but i dint told her ..So, we sit rapid bus to Times Square..On that day, aunty was working so she cant fetch us go Kai Kai ..but nvrm la..I know how to take bus ma ..hehez

Arrived at Times Square, we went to find our uncle at 7th floor..Unlucky, he went to Genting for work adi ..sob..Hooray ..we start our shooping liao ..Already long times i dint shop liao ..coz i everyday also working ..How to shop leh ..Must wait holiday ..HAiz..

My mummy bought me a sweater..It was so nice.. I believe i cant found it at Taiping want ..hahaz..For me the sweater got abit unique..( wait I free i upload the photo ya )..after shop and shop.. i treat mum for a lunch at Excutive Kitchen ..Long time we dint eat at there adi since fews year ago ..The food was so nice ..we eat till very full..After lunch..continue shop again ..We dont miss out any shop also ...I sekaligus bought alot of thing back to taiping ..Especiallly clothes..shoes..I like all this stuff...Woooh..Really fun shopping with mum ..After times Square..Sungei Wang samo.. That place ah ..lagi nonit say liao ..non-stop buying..the cloths all very nice..But i got limit myself de..Buy so much nonit money meh ..hahaz..

Anyway on that day, I feel i have buying enough..I bought shoes, shirts, long and short jeans, dress, skirt and so on ..Mum already suan me liao ..She say go back taiping need to but another cupboard for me to put all my cloths ..hehex..Haiyo..one a while buy so many nia ma ..:}p..Dress up is girl de character adi ma (just for me ) another gal i dont know oh..lolx..

8pm we went to Carefour and find aunt..Very sad ..It was raining..I cant go pasar malam anymore..I just can went to Queens Park nia..Haih..At there, i bought a Giordano shirt samo..Luckily i still can get something at there..at least not so dissappointed ma ..walk for the whole day ,mum feel uncomfortable with the shoe she wearing..So she bought a pair of shoes at there too while i bought my dad a pair of leather sandals shoes..

Because of raining, so i ask aunt fetch us go Jusco for a walk..Actually mum searching some shirt for dad le..She bought dad a PDI stripe shirt...My dad like stripe shirt very much lo..Actually jusco nothing to shop also ...That day i bought myself a sleeveless shirt at there but i wear once nia..Sob..waste money ..

Reached home adi 11pm..cousin bro suddenly ask me want go yam cha with michele ar not ?? That time is so late..I duno mum will let me out ar not..Plus dont want mahuan aunt fetch us out ...But my mummy is so good ..she let go out with them ..So we went Old Town and yam cha..Break Record 1st time i go out with frens untill 4am ..Huh..Keng !! we chit chat at there..Crap alot of stuff..We really enjoyed..But i started to feel sleepy adi..They ask me tahan ..So i just tahan with the sleepy mood..Sorry, i Sou Heng adi..But i really cant stand..Whole day shooping cause me very tired plus i dint try b4 so late go home for sleep de ah ..lolx..

ANyway thanks alot ya my frens ..

on the way back to home is raining..arnold try to speed but he care our safety ..So nice fren..Reached home samo chat with mum till 5am oli sleep ..

The next day which is Sunday..I wake up 7am to packed my things..Now only i realise I got so much thing need to bring back ..All together 4 bags..Cham..It was so heavy..

After breakfast, Aunt fetch us go MId Valley for a short walk...At there i bought a Roxy shirt samo..Chia lat lo...I non stop buying..HOw ?? I dont want be pemboros ..huhuh

After midvalley, we go The Gardens for a walk walk...at there i dint buy anything..coz the clothes all is so extremly expensive..Im a poor fella ..i not effort to buy it ..Hahaz..

4.30pm on the way back to Taiping..It was a heavy rain..Is so hard for us to take down our bags..Haih..Pudu samo so crowded ..

LAstly , I leave KL and went back to my Hometown ----Taiping..
Byez KL..
*p/s ..mum maybe want bring me n bro go again when the holiday is coming..that time maybe i can meet you all ther liao ..(but must depend mum free bo )..

:Last Day At HP :

11th of april 2008, i end up my working life at HP.. Really Bu Se De to leave all my colleague and i have a wonderful memories being a worker at Hp..Its Nice and Fun !! I had gain alot of experience and skills in the 3 and half month..But of course work is tiring and stress le..Everyday gona wake up at 6.30am and squeeze in the lousy bus..Huhuh..But every morning i and my cousin bro sure slept in the bus because we are tired and ntg to do in the bus also..hahaz !! dont worry..we wont miss out to drop down at our working building ( Menara Olympia )..To start another quite boring day with answering the customers call..send brochure..do report..and so on ..5.30pm sharp all of us will log out our cisco and prepare go home..But sometimes need to attend briefying or meeting..Anyway we take 1 and half hour journey to reached our house..pity leh ..sob..KL working life ma what to do plus want earned money..So just be patient ..At last i have finish my working life so happy but i very miss my KL frens la ..like my dearest cousin Ben, michele,kian keong,kinyang, joanne,jyne, eujin and so on ....

The last day of mine, they had do a farewell party for me..After work we went to Station 1 cafe
nearby Leisure Mall.. we having fun and joy at there..After the dinner ,we lepak at Pasar malam ..then i plan to watch midnite movie ..but some of them no ppl fetch so gotta go back earlier ,then we plan to go our Team lead ( Sherryl ) house..but tak jadi..scared disturb her..

At the end, after the walk at pasar malam is already around 12am, so we planned go home..The goodbye situation is so touching and sad ..Suddenly i feel like i dont want back to Taiping although i homesick and miss my taiping frens alot..I want continue stayed at KL and together with your..But No choice i adi informed to resigned 2 weeks ago ..Actually I should resigned 2nd of april ..but i extend it ..

Is time to say to goodbye to you all...I appreciate the moment we shared together i will keep it
in my mind forever and ever..

Michele:1 of my good fren at HP..we always shared the food...go where alway stick together, tats y Kinyang always say u..come my place n chat samo ah ..hahaz
Joanne:thanks for helping me when i got trouble..
KK:thanks for sending me voice mail oh ..
Jyne:thanks for helping me too..we always like to play the cisco..
Kinyang:thanks for helping me solve all the lousy customers..and miss the time we always "'Ting Chui'"..
Eujin:nice to meet u ..although we just go out twice b4..but you is a nice fren..
Lastly my dearest cousin Ben:thanks for helping too lo..but i got help u also ya ..hahaz

Frens ..Do take care ya..hope to see all your soon..Keep in touch oh..MIss u gUys loads..Muackz
Remember me always..:]p

wiNNie tHe pOOh

fEeliNg bOred nothing to do..So I decided to update my blog template..Searching searching..finally i successful search fot my favourite disney <---Winnie the Pooh ..I like it so much (last time more like de), Like till i everything also Pooh pooh..Tats y my frens always say me "Chiak beh Tua'" Nowadays not so siao of it adi ..coz i grow up liao ma..hahaz..But thinking still got a bit childish ..lolx..Pooh is so cute..Fat fat de( eat honey ma)..Still remember fren say, i so like winnie the Pooh also because some1..Really ?? I had no comment..lolx

3 more day to go..Im so happy..Cant wait for the day to arrived lo..I gotta do alot of thing la..
Hope everything going on smoothly :}p..Actually the coming soon de 3 day got happy and sad thing happen want le..But i will choose the happy thing..hahaz!!

*p/s: wait the 3 day over adi , i will update my blog and tell your what is happening~~

**wAitiNg**cuRiouS**GiVe Up**

..wake up 6.30 in the morning.. still in the sleepy mood...lazy wana go work...suddenly saw a message from you and 1 fren .Dint feel shock at all when saw the message from you it is because once a while you will send me a funtext or msg me..But this msg got abit different from your previous de..abit happy but again you cause my mind change...I say before i must give up and started my new life.. i dont know whether i can do it ar not ..!! Lastly, i feel that i not so easily give up ..Why my heart being so eaily get touched from you wor ?? or actually this is just a normal msg and dont mean anything de..just myself "yi xiang ching yuan"for all the time...I really dont know what are you thinking ?? So,I decided to replied your msg(indirectly asking ) hahaz..Hope the answer you gona give me de is what i had been waiting for..Actually regarding this question,we had chat many times before,everytime the answer of the end of the chatting will be same..Haiz~~this is the last time I asked you..after this i must not asking you anymore..Anyway you had started your own new life..So is time for me to start my new life..After this no more waiting and not so easily ''xin luan ''...Life is still going on..just stand up from where i fall..I still have my lovely family and frens around me ..God please save me !!

dARknEss NigHt in tHe RaiNy dAY @@@ sUx in tHe Bus

...As usual 5.30pm our time to go home and have our dinner...But yesterday is a unlucky day for me.It was a heavily rain ,I and my colleague cant go back home..The thunder is so strong..and among 7 people just got 3 people have umbrealla..so we decide to for a Mummumzzzz at 3rd floor...The day was so cold..every1 hope for the rain to stop..We order some popiah and 3 plate of mamak Rojak..We sat there around 3o minutes, then we start our journey home although the rain is still abit heavy ..I share the umbrella with Ben and he feel so uncomfortable with the way i holding umbrealla..Actually is because of our height ...hahaz..Is goes same to michelle and Kk..both of them are so funny ( the way of holding umbrealla too ):::: After a distance,we are separate, I n Ben walk to Kotaraya ,while Justin,Kk, michelle walk to masjid jamek for LRt...
6.30pm start the journey back to home..OMG!!! it take 2 hours to reach my home..this is the 1st time i sit for long hour de bus ~~if i at taiping, I adi reach Jusco and have a nice shopping mood ~~Huh..All oso because of the traffic jam but the driver had make a mistake, he plan to take a short cut so that he can finish his work earlier and avoid the traffic jam ...but He is WrONg..we get stuck in the shOrt cUt..and need to patah balik again...Uhuhuh..he is wasting our time being sux in the bus samo the bus is full with passengers..All of us are like the SarDiN fish...cant even breath also ...whatEver Type of sMell also have...
Lastly, we reach home !! I n Ben get shock when we look into the house..I thought OHya..they all is waiting us to have a dinner..bUt when i 1 more step further,uncle told us that our house electric was get SHOCK !! Ohohooh..cham..No electric..How...I started to imagine the day without electric..luckily,it was a raining day so we wont feel hot but it was dangerous for us..anytime the thunder will strike then the house will get fire..so HOrrible...I heard from my aunt,she say that there got abit of fire cross over the door..Sadly,i not on the spot i cant describe it..i just cant imagine..sob..later on, i follow aunt go delivered vitagen..I rather sit in the car thani stay at home..house is so boring..After delivered all the vitagen is around 9.30pm....all of us are starving..So aunt went for Ta Pao..we Ate our dinner at 10pm..Is already 10pm,I haven went for bath..because no heater..the water is so cold..yet i terpaksa to bath cold water too...HAiz...I lighted up a candle and put on the toilet ..I so scared it will fall and the house get fire...choi...Compare to other day,yest de bath is so fast ..I dint even wash my hair properly ..Huh..wait..wait..wait..is already 11pm the TNB ppl haven come for repairing..They are so irresponsible with their job..what king of attitude is this ?? From 8pm we call till 12 smtg..
Anyway..I cant do anything also ..so i just went for my sleep..Sunly..I heard a noise sound coming from outside..i look at my handphone time ..is 2.30 in the morning....how dare the worker now only come for a look...pity my uncle need to take care for the house while all of us go for sleep...

***this is what happening during the darkness right***btw dont have any romantic feeling on that night also ...hahaz